Vindication is not possible
I've hit rock bottom, both emotionally and spiritually. I have done things recently that I never dreamed I would do. After regaining trust, I intentionally abused it and violated privacy to fuel the emotions of anger and jealousy that overwealmed me. In effect, I ruined any chance at regaining what could have been perfect. What the fuck have I done? It was hard enought to live with myself after ruining a relationship, but just when I was getting back on track with my thoughts and actions, I did this. It's amazing how pathetic I can be. It's amazing how I can just become a bad person all of the sudden. I wonder how I can live with myself.
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I've been there...I can understand...I, too, have done many things designed to hurt people I cared about, and with absolutely no explanation why. We all have an evil side...you have to face it and decide to overcome it, or accept it. My evil side just happens to be named Bob...I trust you can figure out which option I chose...
Don't worry, you'll get through it...Let's just hope you fare better than me, after all, I am the one with three personalities floating around in my head.
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